Off-off shore

amazing boat party last night on the all new Ladybird Lake. really really fucking incredible. even before we left the dock there was just this excitement in the air. everyone was just so mesmerized by the fact that we were going to be on a boat. like a boat. in the water. a new experience for those that don't own boats or live in a boating style community where people have weekly and bimonthly boating meetings, that eventually end in boating parties. we crashed it with grace. it was crystal's going away party for she is moving to spain (tear/jealousy) we got hammered. mixed around with people. listened to some bands. not that impressive. danced to some michael jackson.. then lee taped garcia and travis' heads together. wonderful.

allergies are killing me.

Okay, the moths, or gnats, or whatever the hell they were have seemed to subside. But now I wake up in tears and sniffles. Its super annoying, and it makes me feel like i'm living in a lifetime made for tv drama... Like my husband just left me and i cry myself to sleep everynight. then cry myself waking. which is a weird feeling. like it's happening right now. tears running down my face. i can't figure it out. when the day gets going i usually feel better. it's just these first couple of hours that destroy me. I also need to find a new job. can anyone help me. either some morning work before 2pm, or some night work that starts after 7pm. someone come to my aid with suggestions/ideas. i have many sweet skills. word. I'm going to go cry in bed some more. I can't believe he left me and took the kids.

esperando...

i held her hand... if only for a brief instant.

things that torment children

theres this weird part in charlotte's web where she's telling wilbur a story of one of her cousin spiders who made a web over a pond, and a fish got stuck in the web, and thrashed her web, and the spider thought that she was going to drown in the water from the weight of the fish, but it turns out that the fish dies in the web, and then the spider eats the fish when it is damn well ready.

dang

i think i just realized that my life's goal is to not work. hopefully that will start soon. there are plenty of things that i can get paid for that i don't consider work. at least not in that painful 9 to 5 office, restaurant, warehouse type way. i wish i could dj somewhere at least twice a week.